Will it ever get easier?

It had been aged since I blogged...I got busy/lazy/not inspired. Tonight here I am. BLOGGING.

About what?

The passing of my father. It has been 5 months.... 5 long months since he's gone. Even till now, I can't accept he's gone. I miss him every single day even when I never admit it. I can't talk about him for more than 5 min without crying.

I want him back so badly I am willing to do almost anything. I know this is totally silly and stupid coz it's impossible.

I just want him to hold me again. I want him to meet his grandson. He never get to know we are having a boy.

I love you, daddy.